Lately, I have become so aware of mortality. Yes, death is really the blunt way to say that. We die. We all do. Before my church aunties come for me, let me clarify this. What I mean is the body will at one point stop performing the normal body functions; I am not talking about the Spirit man. We can get a bit technical with these terms but I’ll keep it simple in this series.

I know this is a sensitive topic since many people have lost loved ones through the COVID season. But it’s real.

So many reasons make mortality real to me. Maybe it’s watching Grey’s Anatomy or maybe it’s reading the late Paul Kalanithi’s book – ‘When breath becomes air’. Or maybe it’s empathizing with my friends who’ve lost loved ones. Maybe it’s receiving some material things that I did not have growing up and still realizing, it’s fleeting. All of it. Everything on this earth will only help us enjoy life down here but once the body gives in to death, that’s it. It doesn’t matter anymore.

As a Christian, mortality then awakens the hunger for purpose within me. We all know that material things are fleeting but aren’t we the same people that preach the prosperity gospel? Don’t get me wrong, I am not in any way bushing wealth and material resources. But I am bushing it when it becomes the primary focus.

Yeah, I am going to die one day, and so are you. So, are you living out what God has created you to live out? Are you bringing His will here on earth? Or do you simply get up, secure your bag, have a good time and move on to the next day?

Mortality coupled with purpose makes me wanna be aligned more than anything else. Makes me want to be at the right place at the right time. Because God’s depending on me to do that and shift things down here for Him.

Are you where you ought to be? Are you with whomever you ought to be with? Are your interactions purposeful? Have you been spreading the good news or are you too scared to speak out? Are getting sucked up in pop culture and finding cool yet you’re losing God?

It’s a bunch of things I plan on writing about in this mortality topic that we have started today so indulge me friends.

Ecclesiastes 9:5

For the living know that they will die, but the dead know nothing, and they have no more reward, for the memory of them is forgotten.


1 Kings 1:3

God was pleased with Solomon

Because he did not ask for wealth or a long life, he asked for wisdom

His requests were in line with God’s specific purpose for his life

He was called to be a King

He was appointed to rule over the nations

He was God’s choice and he allowed God to use him in that way

When He asked for wisdom, it was so he could accomplish God’s plan for his life

My guess is: Had he been in the army, he would have asked for insight and strength

Had he been a businessman, he would have asked God for business tips and great managing skills

What is my purpose and does my request match up to God’s purpose?

To be rightfully aligned is to desire what God has created me to do

Like Solomon, I pray that my eyes will be open

I pray that I will be rightfully aligned

So that my desires and requests will match up to God’s purpose for me

It could be strength, resilience, trading tips, mother instincts, problem solving skills, long suffering or wisdom

None is greater than the other

It is simply a question of being rightfully aligned.


Dear Lord, let me be rightfully aligned so that I can desire in line with your purpose for me. Let me be so aware and awakened to purpose that destructions of the world do not alter my vision or my heart.

Allow me, Lord to see what you see.

Allow me to hear what you hear.

Allow me to walk where you walk.

And let me desire to be where you are.

In line with your will and purpose for me.


The Cross Cuts Both Ways

The Cross

The cross is about connection

Connection vertically and horizontally

There is no existence without the perfect connection.

Connection to God who sent us His only son to save us

Connection to Jesus who was nailed to that cross for us

Connection to the Holy Spirit who either lives in us or is knocking on our hearts longing for the opportunity to find a home in us.

Then there’s the other part, connection horizontally…

Connection to the world

The saved and unsaved

Cultured and uncultured

Connection to mankind

That brings hope, peace and assurance

The warm hug that covers all men in spite of.

Connection that causes us to find the orphans, widows, servants and have a genuine moment with them

Connection that draws our hearts to kings and presidents

The cross cuts both ways – vertically and horizontally…

Loving, serving and giving ourselves to people

Yet surrendering and sipping God’s goodness at His feet

The cross cuts both ways.

That’s the beauty of the cross.


Hey reader. I decided to let you into my journal. God has been wrecking my heart, showing me how alive I am (which isn’t a good thing); showing me how I need to give Him way in my life so He can move through me. We had a little moment and I tried to pen that moment. I pray this moves something in you. I pray that this awakens the desire to give everything up for God. Amidst this dark phase the world is going through, I hope we can all get a glimpse of God’s perspective.

I wanna die

I wanna exchange my breath for yours

I wanna strip off every form of me

I just don’t know how.

Beyond the prayers

Beyond the fasting

Beyond evangelism and mentorship

I wanna own the grave

I wanna be comfortable in the grave

I wanna live, breath and exist 6 feet under

Where my rights and breath don’t exist

I wanna die

So you can live in me

Life wholly, fully, completely in me

Maybe I understand surrender

Maybe I can sniff death

But I wanna desire death

Death of me, All of me

So all of you can take over

The prize of all of God is all of me,” – Joshua Selman

Galatians 2:20 (TPT)

My old identity has been co-crucified with Messiah and no longer lives; for the nails of the cross crucified me with him. And now, the essence of this new life is no longer mine, for the Anointed one lives His life through me-we live in union as one! My new life is empowered by the faith of the son of God who loves me so much that He gave Himself for me and dispenses His life into mine!

Show me how to die

So all of you can live

Die to the pleasures of this world

Die to the flesh

Die to my desires

Die to my passion and calling

Only for you

All for you.

Stay in the Fire

1 Corinthians 3:12-14 The Passion Translation

12–13 The quality of materials used by anyone building on this foundation will soon be made apparent, whether it has been built with gold, silver, and costly stones, or wood, hay, and straw. Their work will soon become evident, for the Day will make it clear, because it will be revealed by blazing fire! And the fire will test and prove the workmanship of each builder. 14 If his work stands the test of fire, he will be rewarded. 

What substance am I made of?Is it clay or sand? Is it stone or mud? Is it brick or wood?

Our substance is cultivated over a long period of time, through different seasons and trials that may be only known to few.  When situations strike and it looks like they will knock us out but we stay in the boxing court till the fight is over. That in itself is a win, that’s part of the glory.

This scripture has been and continues to be very alive in my life. I have to constantly remind myself of this when I get the blows from this world. Usually, foundation can be tested by a tremor or earthquake. If it withstands the tremor, it’s good. But if it withstands the earthquake, then it is excellent quality, was mixed in the right ratios and laid down to precision.

That hard season, that tough time, those tears and emotions that no one sees, don’t allow it to take you out. Flow with Him and His glow will soon show on you. The fire has got to test the workmanship. Let’s allow ourselves to go through the fire knowing He that’s in us is greater than the world and is not knocked down by fire. 


Blazing fire doesn’t just burn, it consumes.  Let it consume all of me till all that’s left is the perfect vessel, the perfect workmanship. Often times we ask God to set us on fire for Him but we don’r realize that the fire will first burn everything that’s unlike Him causing us to ache and desire Him all at the same time.

Don’t quit friend. Build the relationship, stay in the fire and let your workmanship be proven.


Father, I desire to be more like you and I thank you that even when the fire burns you’re right with me. The fire will not take me out but will build intimacy between me and you so much so that all I want to do is be at your feet. I want you as my reward and I thank you for giving me you. I love you father. In Jesus name, Amen!

Fearless Woman

The kind that’s weak enough to cry

Wobbly enough to fall on God’s shoulders

Open to exposing her wounds

To the father and the world

Ready to reach down to find existing wounds

That haven’t become scars yet

Acknowledging that she’s got some shame

Putting her shame at His feet

Remembering the insecurities

Bringing back the tears

Wrecked and damaged

Hurt and broken

Covered and under

Stretched and torn


Fearless Woman

Life, Life, Life, Still alive!

Still can blossom

Can still walk above circumstances

Can take some scars

Because she’s allowed the wounds to be healed

Can talk about the shame

Coz she’s left it at Jesus’s feet

Can walk again, live again, breath again

Coz she’s carried by her father

Walking with a clean title

Because the wreck was cleaned out

Free from the pain because the hurt was wiped out by endless love

Restored and whole because her capacity was increased

Above only and never beneath!

Coz God’s holding her hand.


Fearless Woman.


2nd Corinthians 3:18

We can all draw close to him with the veil removed from our faces. And with no veil we all become like mirrors who brightly reflect the glory of the Lord Jesus. We are being transfigured into his very image as we move from one brighter level of glory to another. And this glorious transfiguration comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.

Do I sometimes refuse to let go of the veil?

Because the danger of being exposed sounds more risky than the comfort zone.

It looks like the veil covers me

It feels like the veil shields me

I am familiar with the consequences of the veil

I may not like them but I know how to deal with them

I don’t wanna look in the mirror because I’m scared of what I’ll see

I wanna live in the euphoria of the veil

I don’t want to see the raw me

I don’t want to face the insecurities

I really don’t wanna know where I am right now

I’m fine living in the comfort of the veil

Where I feel like nothing is wrong


And when something goes wrong I know how to fix it coz I am way too familiar with this

It’s a self-inflicted veil

A veil that keeps me from progressing

I don’t need to give credit to the devil for stagnation because I’m pretty good at his job

I’m holding onto the veil

What I don’t know is that the mirror shows me who God is

Because that’s really who I am in Him

Christ IN ME

If only I can let go of the veil

And do that thing James talks about in James 1

Look in the mirror and see freedom

Look in the mirror and see love

Look I the mirror and see perfection because that’s who I am in Christ

I just need to let go of the veil

Trust in Christ and let go of the veil because the fear is an illusion keeping me from experiencing God in totality.

Let go of the veil…


Isaiah 53:1

‘He shall grow up before Him as a tender plant, and as a root out of dry ground.”

 A tender plant from the dry ground. Dry grounds produce thorny plants like cactus that have adaptations of living in the wilderness with minimal supply of water. What are the chances? How then can we have tender plants from the wilderness?

In the middle of a sun scorched land should be exhaustion but instead there’s blossoming. Why? Because that’s the standard that Christ set and as He is so are we in this world.


When it’s hot and dry

When the sun shines and there are no signs of the rain

When it’s hard and tough

When I am caught up in between two rocks

When my emotions are in a pit

When I really don’t feel like it

That’s when I thrive! Because it’s in my nature, it’s in my DNA. If Christ demonstrated it then it’s my reality!

Instead of wondering why it’s so tough, I should get my praise dance on and get ready for the tender plant from the dry ground!

Coz I am a new breed! Christ’s breed!



Psalms 91:1……911

‘He who dwells in the secret place of the most high shall abide under the shadow of the almighty.’

 Where is the secret place? The secret place is definitely not a geographical location. Is it the place of seeking God with all your heart till you find Him? Is it the place of obedience? Or is it the place of rest? These questions have been running through my mind for years now…

The secret place is the place of revelation. I believe revelation is in several stages and though the secret place does not change, depending my level of revelation, the secret place could be more intimate in different seasons of my life.

When Christ died and rose again, the work was finished! In this work we find redemption; the total package which guarantees health, wealth and protection! If God freely gave these things to us, all we need to do is receive them! Why then do we need to be in the secret place to get protection according to our ‘911’ scripture?


Because the secret place is the place of redemption! It’s the place of salvation. A parent protects his children at all cost; and God is not any different. But we become His sons by accepting Christ as our savior. It’s all tied up to the cross; it’s in the cross! The finished work.

However, once we have a personal relationship with Christ then we desire Christ more and more. We develop a deeper relationship. The secret place does not change but our mindset shifts, our desire for deeper increases.


I wanna be more intimate than I ever was before. Although I know I am guaranteed of your love, protection and care; I wanna know you more. I want the secret place to be so personal and ‘secret’ to me that I long for you every hour not taking for granted the things that I have freely received by virtue of being your child!


Genesis 2:7

Then the LORD God formed a man from the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living being.


It’s amazing how God starts the journey of intimacy from the very beginning. He had the option of speaking man into existence just like He did with the rest of His creation. But he began by showing us what intimacy should look like. “He formed man from the dust of the ground.” He took his time to form/mold man because this creation would be a special piece to Him. He invested His creativity in establishing a relationship even before man existed.


He shows us how invested He is with His special creation. He wanted to take time and form him, he wanted to be ‘hands-on’ to feel more involved with him because that’s the perfect relationship. That’s the reason He created us. For intimacy and communion.

‘He breathed into his nostrils.’ Picture this. After molding and shaping man, he breathed into him. What an act of intimacy! He did not breathe into every creation, He breathed into man creating relationship right from the beginning. Look at how intimate He is; how He desires intimacy! He shows us how our relationship should look like with Him. The ultimate sign of depth!


Daddy, I love you. I desire you just like you desire me. I want to be intimate with you. I want to enjoy close relationship, communion and depth with you just like you intended from the very beginning. I want to love you with all of me. I am because you are; I exist to have a relationship with you. I acknowledge this today as I get deeper with you. Amen.