I moved out of comfort into risk. Honestly, I wish I had done this earlier. I walked into an unventured zone that looked like it had chaff in the air but I didn’t realize the little particles of chaff were butterflies that hadn’t blossomed yet and it would take faith to see the butterflies instead of the chaff.
I settled in my heart that God’s promises were real. That obstacles and arrows were part of the journey because the gift in me had to be sharpened and this process is not always pretty. Though it looked like a disadvantage to me, it was a focal point of growth.
I heard the opinions but listened to God; and once again, the two contradicted. I heard words of faith that grew in me and matured in me . I’m not perfect, nowhere close. He is still working on me and though that feels uncomfortable most times, I love it. I realized that the moment I stop thinking that He’s working on me pride will be checking in and I’ll need to back up.
I found blessings hidden in rugs. I found gold covered in the grass. I found friends in unlikely situations and realized when friendship is orchestrated by God & purpose, time is just a number. I found love right in front of me. The wax in my ears melted and I now hear him sincerely calling me as he calls unto the Lord and pursues Him.
I realized that being God’s fragrance can be literal. 2 Corinthians 2:14-16 Now thanks be to God who always leads us in triumph in Christ, and through us diffuses the fragrance of His knowledge in every place. For we are to God the fragrance of Christ among those who are being saved and among those who are perishing. It’s possible to walk into a room and change the atmosphere because of whose presence you carry sometimes without saying a word.
God is still walking with me on the journey of vulnerability. Airing the scars because they are beautiful at his feet. They’re purposeful when encouraging others. Realizing that my struggles can be my seed and grounds for God to reveal Himself. I found uncommon favor. I lost things I thought would last forever but I’m grateful. I realized I’m blessed to have a closely knit family where we seek God together and stick together like glue.
I laughed my heart out and I loved it. I wanted to write more, pray more, manage my time better but all in all, I’m grateful to my daddy in heaven.
How was your 2017?