If I knew I would have listened. Not to the fears but to the people that spoke about it. But I did not realize that I needed to listen. Before I could listen to them I needed to listen to me, listen to the things that made me shiver because it wasn’t wrong to feel like that; it was wrong to stay like that.
So I buried it. Deep down where nobody could see it, not even myself. But we all know when we plant some seeds we won’t see the results immediately; however, sooner that later, the evidence of the plant will slowly start emerging and the only way to get rid of it is to dig deep and uproot the entire plant.
Well, that is what I had to do. After learning to listen to myself; something that no one taught me. Something that I never thought about because we are encouraged not to think about these things. But thank God for the Holy Spirit who is the perfect teacher and will work in our lives as long as we let Him in. As long as we invite Him to lead and we follow. He taught me how to listen, how to search inside and be uncomfortable because that’s the only way I got to grow and create more room for Him to continue working in me.
Only then did I understand why people write and talk about this. The emphasis is as a result of necessity. I found out I can create a pit hole for myself without even realizing it. The fear of other peoples opinion cuts off or delays one’s destiny. Until we realize that our lives are controlled by the Holy spirit and others will always come and go, we’ll make crippling decisions that please the masses instead of taking care of our destinies. Only when I truly had this dwelling in my heart did I realize that my vision was clouded and I had no clue; because I didn’t take time to close and wipe my eyes.
Let’s close our eyes today. Look and search deep; not to be afraid but to recognize what’s wrong and correct it-wipe our eyes. Let’s break free from the fear of other people, only we can make that decision for ourselves. No one should live in bondage or fear of what X and Y will say; not even about your mistakes because your mistakes are a focal point of your growth. This is not to negate the fact that God does speak to us through other people but to establish that we should never live in fear! After all “others” is always changing, it’s a different group in different seasons of your life. But God will never leave us nor forsake us!
2nd Tim 1:7
For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.