Cain said to the Lord, my punishment is more than I can bear. “Behold, You have driven me this day from the face of the ground; and from Your face I will be hidden, and I will be a vagrant and a wanderer on the earth, and whoever finds me will kill me.”…
I am the Cain that falls short of God’s plan, sometimes moves in man’s wisdom instead of God’s wisdom. I am the Cain that sometimes gives God the good instead of the best forgetting that everything belongs to Him. I see Cain over and over. Cain in the little lie yesterday or the cover up today and the lack of faith tomorrow. Every time I fall short of what God has intended for me, I see Cain.
But look at His comeback. Look at his response to his punishment. The tone of the text suggests that he was saddened by the fact that he would be away from God’s presence. The sin was awful but the punishment was unfathomable to him. He may have realized that he made a huge mistake.
What’s most interesting is that he did not want to be away from God’s presence. He wanted to stay right in His bosom even with his brother’s blood in his hands. How many of us run to God after doing wrong?
I want to be a Cain especially in this area. I shouldn’t run from God in times of failure but run to God! That’s the Cain kind of victory.
Victory that says no matter what I did, no matter what I think of the pit that I may have put myself in, I will run to God’s presence. Not only will I find grace but I will be covered in so much love that the desire to sin will soon be a thing of the past. We want more Cains in the church. We want to crave God’s presence so much so that when we run away from it we can’t help but crawl right back in.
Yes, I want to be the Cain!
I want to have the kind of hands that crave for the Messiah because though they are bloody, they still belong to him.