Hey reader. I decided to let you into my journal. God has been wrecking my heart, showing me how alive I am (which isn’t a good thing); showing me how I need to give Him way in my life so He can move through me. We had a little moment and I tried to pen that moment. I pray this moves something in you. I pray that this awakens the desire to give everything up for God. Amidst this dark phase the world is going through, I hope we can all get a glimpse of God’s perspective.
I wanna die
I wanna exchange my breath for yours
I wanna strip off every form of me
I just don’t know how.
Beyond the prayers
Beyond the fasting
Beyond evangelism and mentorship
I wanna own the grave
I wanna be comfortable in the grave
I wanna live, breath and exist 6 feet under
Where my rights and breath don’t exist
I wanna die
So you can live in me
Life wholly, fully, completely in me
Maybe I understand surrender
Maybe I can sniff death
But I wanna desire death
Death of me, All of me
So all of you can take over
“The prize of all of God is all of me,” – Joshua Selman
Galatians 2:20 (TPT)
My old identity has been co-crucified with Messiah and no longer lives; for the nails of the cross crucified me with him. And now, the essence of this new life is no longer mine, for the Anointed one lives His life through me-we live in union as one! My new life is empowered by the faith of the son of God who loves me so much that He gave Himself for me and dispenses His life into mine!
Show me how to die
So all of you can live
Die to the pleasures of this world
Die to the flesh
Die to my desires
Die to my passion and calling
Only for you
All for you.