Hey reader. I decided to let you into my journal. God has been wrecking my heart, showing me how alive I am (which isn’t a good thing); showing me how I need to give Him way in my life so He can move through me. We had a little moment and I tried to pen that moment. I pray this moves something in you. I pray that this awakens the desire to give everything up for God. Amidst this dark phase the world is going through, I hope we can all get a glimpse of God’s perspective.

I wanna die

I wanna exchange my breath for yours

I wanna strip off every form of me

I just don’t know how.

Beyond the prayers

Beyond the fasting

Beyond evangelism and mentorship

I wanna own the grave

I wanna be comfortable in the grave

I wanna live, breath and exist 6 feet under

Where my rights and breath don’t exist

I wanna die

So you can live in me

Life wholly, fully, completely in me

Maybe I understand surrender

Maybe I can sniff death

But I wanna desire death

Death of me, All of me

So all of you can take over

“The prize of all of God is all of me,” – Joshua Selman

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Galatians 2:20 (TPT)

My old identity has been co-crucified with Messiah and no longer lives; for the nails of the cross crucified me with him. And now, the essence of this new life is no longer mine, for the Anointed one lives His life through me-we live in union as one! My new life is empowered by the faith of the son of God who loves me so much that He gave Himself for me and dispenses His life into mine!

Show me how to die

So all of you can live

Die to the pleasures of this world

Die to the flesh

Die to my desires

Die to my passion and calling

Only for you

All for you.